Monday, March 28, 2005
hey peepz..i sorta moved my blog..tho the other one is kinda crazy..eh, the other blog i have is super negative and eh, so far is pretty much abt him..
i may be giving up peeps..praise me..
sry i aint got much tym to come here..noe its growing cobwebs aredi..but my comp's pretty screwed recently..the internet esp..hpe to gt into uni soon..they have wireless broadband or smth..
anw, here's the site
peace out folks...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
new year is finally here, tho i aint reali excited abt it..weird..
hven bn bloggin at pitas recently bcux i was kinda bz at wrk..got myself a job at ocbc..ends ard 11mar..bn real bz..hadta keep my ocbc job a secret from relief teachin, n vice versa..plus i had tuitn..n i was tryin to start a blogspot blog..so was jus totali screwed...was nv a day whereby i came home bouncing up and down, chirping like a bird..
Friday, January 14, 2005
jus had my first solo tuition wif this pri 5 malay-chinese kid n man, u guys shld see the amt of blood tt i puked out. its all over the floor. come! come see it!
firstly, got tricked by him n nx ting, he was surfing the net as i teached!! lyk hello?? darn. n all the Qns i asked him, he din get them wrong but neither did he get them right cux all his ans were 'dunno'. he's so gon fail his chinese man. i so wanted to kill him or flung him out of the window but apparently his folks were at home....
urgh, im headin for permanent retirement man...
Thursday, January 13, 2005
was jus out n abt, lookin for pics to deco tis super boring lookin blog of mine.. found a few grafitti pieces but apparently as u can tell they aint wrking out..too few, too bright, too contrasting.. boy am i such a complete IT idiot..
my mom's out for wrk..will be out ltr again at 4.30pm to wrk part tym smwhere..better start planning wat to do..(steam mich? blow up the hse? no wiat, blow up the hse WITH mich in it hahahah) kiddin la ppl.. anw,mich my younger sis.. haiz,feelin darn guilty cux i shld be the one wrking now, providing for my mom? nut in the end, she's the one sloggin away n wat am i doing folks? tell me wat am i doing? c'mon, tgt now..on the count of three.. one, two...
very nice ppl, very nice.. n as u can tell from the above demonstration, my brain is currently corrodin n it has aredi rot beyond repair..so wld any kind soul out there tell me a lame joke n mk me laff so as to officially label me a..
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
*yawn* woke up rather late today. and the darn relief teaching jus aint payin off. i've on standby mode since last week. haiz, face it, i've been tricked.
im calling teletech later cux jimmy promised to help me find a place there. but no guarantee tho. its all my fault, shld have jus stayed in that conmpany. was attracted by the supposed good pay n good wrking hours tt relief teaching offered. darn, greed....
had a fight wif my mom yday. shall not go into the details. i noe i was smwat in the wrong but still??? at least i noe im in the wrong but she's so f-up in her own world tt she fails to notice her mistake too! seriously, i tink all parents have too huge a pride to ever admit they are wrong. gee, makes me wonder if i'll be lyk tt if i ever do get married but then again, its precisely all these flaws in parents, tt im scared i'd have too, tt turns me off frm becoming a parent. thank god.
i guess i'll stick to rearin lotsa farm animals n domestic pets. well then in a way im still a parent ryt? lol sheesh..
u dun play aft dark, u lit up my day
gt ur own kind of style tt sets u apart.
baby tts y u capture my heart.
I noe smtyms u feel lyk u dun fit in,
n tis world duzen noe wat u hv within
when i luk at u, i see smth rare,
a rose tt can grow anywhere
n there's no one i noe tt can compare.
wat mks u diff mks u beautiful.
What's there inside you shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
what makes you different, makes you beautiful to me.
You got something so real, You touched me so deep
See material things don't matter to me
So come as you are, You've got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you
wat mks u diff mks u beautiful.
What's there inside you shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
what makes u different, makes you beautiful to me.
u dunno hw u touched my life
Oh in so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
You saw the little things that make you beautiful to me
haha i love tis song! v meaningful lyrics. today was my last day at teletech cum SIA's krisflyer prog.haha kinda glad the days of stoning in front of the comp, prayin tt there'll be a call coming in are finali over (n my butt can stop expanding haha) BUT i kinda gt hooked onto the job..its quite fun! n the environment there reminds me of SN. the female colleagues there are so close n warm! they call each oth darlings etc n hug each oth. ha they were so close, my fren, dayana, actuali tot they were les! ha sigh, how sad to leave n join relief tching (face all those lil devils) but glad tt stoning days are over! haha..
Saturday, January 1, 2005
heyZ! finally got my 'new' comp set up.now, why do i say its a (inverted comma) New (close inverted comma)?
well bcux, its a 2nd hand comp!my old pentium HALF crashed beyond repair so my uncle tried gettin for us a better one cux we cant reali afford a new comp juz yet.oh well, nx yr'll be a better yr when i start wrking. gon save up n gt for myself a PS2 n a pentium Four comp! muahahahah.dreamin the impossible yet again.oh well..
lol,yday i was at esplanande tryg to countdwn but it was so f-in crowded tt it jus totali killed my mood.i jz stomped home.ha had a long day at wrk n i juz wanted to chill out n spend the last day of 2004 at sm quiet place etc bt oh well...
my wrk's gon end on 3rd jan.one day left.cant believe im actuali kinda sad to leave.me n my fren,dayana,were contemplatin whether to cont wrkin but my mom aredi sign up relief teachin for me so too bad.the job was kinda tough at first but now i got the hang of it n it kinda gets fun! haha..im wrkin for SIA, helpin them to ans customer calls n help customers extend their miles.long story.haha but its kinda like NTUC's link pts etc?but SIA's in terms of the dist pple have flown.haha pple callin in were those super rich kind so had to be formal n stuff.haha.sounds stressful n scary but its not reali.oh!one more ting....
yes pple, DAVID BECKHAM..n i got his tel n email add.anybody wants them?ha u gotta pay a price!lol.im serious!we even found LKY n G.Chok tong.haha but dun tink anyone wans theirs.oh well...
once again.....
Monday, December 20, 2004
haha once again, here i am again rottin at my sis place. need to use her comp (cux mine crashed!! urgh), net n printer. lol.
yday,i went to UAN to watch charles' performance.he reali amazed everyone haha.v breathtakin?lol.everyone suffocated.ryt.
oh!but there was tis guy called darnie or sth.he caught everyone's attentn wif his bboxin!!haha.he bbox my boo!n he sounds lyk usher.n sm mega mix of all my fav hip hop songs!hotel,yeah,dirt off ur shoulders etc.cool sia!haha n listen to tis--he luks lyk sly!!haha n alot better lukin! lol -faintz- okie, sry shldnt be so hua xin.hahah but cant help it sia. he damn good. lol. (lucky charles duzen have access to my blog =P) kiddin la.im sure he'll master in sm day.i'll be waitg patiently! ^-^ in the meantym...
anw,aft his performance we walk along orchard to see the lightings but damn crowded! sheesh, now i noe y orchard is such a prominent place for terrorist attacks. was so irritated wif the corwd i felt lyk screamin 'F off!!!' vulgar me.ltr he send me home n had supper wif my mom (again) but in the end he miss his last bus n train home.. =P it was ard 3am? so my mom made him sleep over at my hse......wait! dif room! duh.. yeah..but i felt bad for evth. long story. sian.
anw, i startg wrk tis wed!wish me luck!haha
Saturday, December 11, 2004
hahah, gonna play mahjong tmr ie ltr wif teng, qin n my sis.
cant wait!
Wednesday, December 8, 2004
grad's finali over, n as the curtain falls at 1am, our jc life's bn marked wif an 'X'. dunno whether to be glad evth's over or b sad tt EVTH IS over. mixed nostalgia. i mean after all, JC was where i gotta meet so many great pple despite the suffocating sch wrk n schedules. i found hafi, my beloved!, teng n swee! nt to include many others. n it was oso in jc tt i gotta meet my very own piggy...
speakin of which, guess wat he did? at ard 10pm, he called (damn, my free incomin call ends at 7pm! but i guess i gotta make an exception for certain grp of pple ;) ha) n he got me to go out to the swimmin pool. i totali was caught offguard. so i went out n....wait, i gotta tell u the scenery was amzin! their swimmin pool has a very nice shade of blue, and the lightin was awesome. its wat u get in movies. great ambience. n there he was...n no,he wasnt in white, its not exactly a movie u see..n yes,there wasnt any white horse or crown or..haha..but wat there was, was a bouquet of flowers n a guitar. yes yes, he serenade me. i guess that was better than nothin. haha. he surprised me again. alw doin sweet touchin stuf. haiz, cant imagine when he mks it big a few yrs ltr, if he's gona sign the contract. we'll have so lil tym tgt. oh well. he kept tellin me evth's gona be alr, n i guess i jz gotta trust him n see where we end up a few yrs frm nw.
| dun wan just another pReTTy faCe, | Dun WaN jz aNy1 at all, | dun Wan mY Love tO bE waSted, | WaN u N Ur BeAuT|ful Soul.
Sunday, December 5, 2004
im currently at my sis hostel, again. n my dear sis is smhow playing dead, slpin wif her face down. how weird's tt? mayb i'll check on her ltr to mk sure she's not reali dead.
anyhow, tmr's grad nite! lol. spend alot, tho i din buy a gown. managed to dig out sm shit. man, im gon look lyk sm chyna freak! hahaha. beware peepz, beware.
my sis finali got attached! -cheers- now i get to bully another dude. life's gon get VERY interestin frm now on.
Thursday, November 25, 2004
im so sry ppl! my comp crashed. had a hard tym gettin access to any IT of any sort. lol. currently using my sis comp.
anw, im so so so glad As are finally over! freedom, pple! let me hear sm noise!! lol, im curenty ln for a job so help ppl! lol n i cant wait to go out man!!
MGs: Tannin!! at sentosa!!
Teng n Swee n Han: Mahjong session!!
Hafi: go out!! hahah
there's so many tings to do!! duzen seem to end. haha. im so so so glad ive lived thru it! =)
anw, hm.. im attached pple. ha gues u guys'll noe it sooner or ltr. got attached today. yeah. details spared!ha alr, gtg! will update again soon.
miss u guys lots!! muacks!!
Friday, November 5, 2004
Right, today was the start of As. Crap. GP was the first paper, like surprise! -rolls eyes- sighness, I tink there's a hidden conspiracy on why GP's alw the first paper. It's to lower our morale, n serves to attenuate our fightg spirit..
Sry, I'm jus on an overdose of GP. Hvg a bad 'Hangover'. lol. Jus when i tot i cld let go of eng once n for all IF i get to enter Uni, I caught wind of the day o' news tt if u dun do well for GP, u gotta take sm English Proficiency Test in Uni. If u dun pass tt, u gotta take eng as an elective.
My life reali cant get any better. Aft the GP ppr today, my future jus seems alot BLEAKER. Thx Cambridge for coming up wif those crap essay Qns. i chose a suicidal one, the one on 'Have multinational businesses made a positive or negative impact on ur society?' If i took geo, n perhaps mug abit of econ, i mite be able to do better. the oni ting i was satisfied abt was tt i managed to crap ONE statistics out --> tt unemployment rate has fallen frm 14.8% in 1970s to 4.5% in 1990s. Applause pls! i took 2 sec to tink of tt.hope nobody noes tt i fabricated tt out. jokes.
oh well, nx tue's bio n math, my fav n best sub. hope to do well for them. reali hope to. sigh. god bless.
Monday, November 1, 2004
Aaah! -horrors of all horrors- three more days to A's n im still holdin on. sighness. i aint prepared for the A's n god noes. haiz. its all gonna show on my result slip nx yr.
i cant help it if ive got the slacker gene in me! its innate!! sigh. wat am i to do??
strategy pple! gotta call on all my ministers ltr. lol. im at my sis hostel now, gonna mug wif her til 5am at some hall 9 canteen. (is tt right? hall 9? yeah i tink so) sigh. i need a tym stopping device. will 3 days be enuf for me to build one? sighness. -scremz-
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Well, study break jus officially started with sch takin a grand exit with the fall of farewell concert (yday). Was reali a gr8 one, esp since piggy performed. ha. BUT apparently, sm ppl had to shout out my name. Sigh,i shall be nice n not name them...
OOPS,sry tt was unintentional!! haha. Anw, aft tt he went wif me to Boon Keng Mrt station to pick up a book for my younger sis. But my ez link ran outta money! so he lend me. I told my mom n she asked me to invite him over for dinner which i did! Lol, so he came over to yishun to haf dinner. Ltr, he popped over to my hse to use the loo before i walked him to the bus stop. At the bus stop, the silly guy din board the bus, instead he gave me a priv mini concert! Lol, it was reali....mesmerising. Ha. But i felt bad cux he reached home rather late n he got locked out. =( he hadta climb his kitchen window.
But oh well, sigh.. to tink As starting so soon n i reali haven reali started mugging. Bad sign. N i wonder wat'll happen to us frm then on....
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Yesterday was a superb night! =) *all smiley n cheery* lol. My sis's fren, Andy, had a bday chalet so my sis 'drag' me along..Alr,it was volantary. Wanted to go pei her n, well, protect her frm sm ppl. Yep. =) *feeling all high n noble* haha. And..charles came along to pei me n prevent me frm getting bored etc. ha.
we jus sat by ourselves in one corner n tok. Ltr, we tok a walk ard the chalet by ourselves n it was night. Picture that. *beams* but well, the entire place was under severe reconstruction so it kinda killed the picture abit. Nevertheless.....*all smiley again!* haha.
as we were crossin this T-junction, this freakin yellow car..-Note: YELLOW. lyk yeew!!-..almost knocked me dwn. i tink the guy was either drunk or tryin to show his gal his 'superb' drivin skills. he din turn his signal lights on nor did he slowed dwn. he jus gave a sudden sharp turn towards me. Charles got a very bad shock but i was ok. ltr he told me he was scared cux he failed to protect me n frm then on,he keep walkin on the outside, road shoulder? to prevent me from getting 'knocked down' again! How sweet right? he said he'll go savage if i get knocked dwn. lol.
Ltr, we took Andy's car to the interchange n along the way, we started tokin abt, eh, serious stuff? ha. Yhe irony being tt we had the entire hour to ourselves while we were strollin but we HAD to choose to tok abt stuff in the car when there's others ard. -sighness- ha. but anw, he told me he was scared by the YELLOW car..-if u guys rem..ha-..incident cux he was scared of..
*Feeling....hahaha..u guys noe* lol. I was jus lyk smiling there n speechless. ha. im glad i pass the dark period in which i kept doubtin evth n beginnin to hate him etc. Im glad i listened to advice n tried bearing thru it. Cux if i din, i wldnt haf found the gem n....
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
I watched White Chicks yday! Bladee hilarious! lol. the part when the black man start singin 'Makin my way dwn town....~a thousand miles by vanessa', man i practically fell off my chair. they gave him a damn long close up shot n darn, he's still funny even as tym ticks past! lol which is damn rare in a comedy firm *thumbs up!*
However, tis asshole sitting bside me piss me off. he kept starin at me thruout the firm. his head turned 90 degrees n STARED!! i was so damn pissed. aft the movie,we saw him n his gal again. n den,he stared at me again! n even arefa saw..so guys, i wasnt hallucinating! n bladee hell, i dunno him n i dun give a damn hu the hell he is. i was so irritated. URGH!!! curse him.
anw peeps.go back SN to study one day k?haha cya guys ard n best of luck for As..
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Sighness,i haven started muggin yet. Once again, my laziness's got me, leaving me FULL of regrets towards the end.
anw, i wanna start a blog with blogger but i kinda got lost admidst all the cheam terms n symbols they use. Urgh, so will some kind soul out there pls give me a buzz n perhaps give me a tour ard blogger? Right. I admit Im a complete comp idiot n tt im a loser.
Hafi jus msg to tell me she's panickin now, jus realise there's lots to study n A's coming. Right. So Im kinda wondering---> Wat am i doing here??
Though I know how god damn piss I'll get wif myself when A's starts getting closer n closer, n the amt of unstudied topics remain mountain high. Still, I remain so nonchalant n i wonder again y?
Well, that kinda explains alot doesnt it?
If love was a sky, we'd be blue.
If love was a choir, you and i could never sing,
Cux love isnt for me and you.
If love was an Oscar, you and i could never win,
Cux we can never act out our parts.
If Love is a Bible then we are lost in sins,
Cux its not in our hearts.
So why dun u go ur own way n i'll go mine?
Live your life n i'll live mine.
Baby, you'll do well and i'll be fine
Cux we're better off, separated.
If love was a fire then we have lost the spark,
Love never felt so cold.
If love was a light then we're lost in the dark,
Left with no one to hold.
If love was a sport we're not on the same team,
You n i are destined to lose.
If love was an ocean then we are just a stream,
Cux love isnt for me and you.
nice n sad song it is isnt it? lol. tink im schizo n kinda weird. when im happy, i love sad songs. when im upset, hit it loud n cranky dude. Charles said perhaps it was cux i wanted to neutralise my emotions to attain equilibrium.
-_-"' ::alr piggy,tink u're studyin too much of chem::
i was with him today at the airport. he was shivering n we got chased outta macs n the staff canteen.bloody hell, lyk they've got much business.
::damn u guys!::
anw, A's comin man. sighness. n im still slackin. shit sia. but seriously i hate myself, gonna mug finish a chap today...i hafta!!!!!
Tuesday, October 5, 2004
hmm...im currently off sch..lol thx to our new tymtable..havg EXTRA gp lect at 2pm..oso thx to our new fucked up tym table tt shifted all our lessons up to before 1220 hence allowin the sch to leech away on the available tym..lol irony isnt it?
anw, my dearest piggy gave me a surprise yday! he bot a necklace for me n put it in my locker! lol to replaced the one i lost. how sweet can he get?
he said so many sweet things to me, totally knock me off my feet man. ha. n he still tinks he's not gd enuf, sayg how if oni he was more ready, tings wld be better but he fails to see tt either way it doesnt realli matter! lol.. sry for the mushiness peeps. its jus....im so touched! nv in my life haf any guy been so sweet to me! lol..
he wrote me a poem! n here it is..
If the beautiful stars were smone's eyes,
Lakes of serenity amidst the lies,
On a heart of love warm as the sun,
Very surely i say to u i'll run.
Even if love teaches us to ask why,
You may not be perfect n neither am i!
Obviously u've been hurt b4,
Untidy pieces of me on your heart's floor.
So im tryin my best to b a better man,
Hopefully i'll never hurt u ever again,
Even if ppl come n ppl go,
Real love comes from the ones hu noe,
Reality wounds but love will heal.
YOU WILL ALW BE D LOVE TTS REAL
n check out the 1st letter of each lines...shhhhh..super sweet rite? n his exams are near yet he's doing such tings. im reali super touched!!
::Hugs u even tighter! ::
TheRe |s alWayS tt OnE PerSOn hU w|LL alWaYs HAve Ur HeaRT, u'LL nEvER See |t Com|nG Cux U'Re bL|nDeD fRm tHE sTaRT. KnOW tt U'Re tt OnE fOR mE, |ts CleAr fOr eVryONe tO see. OohH bAby, U W|LL alWayS be My Boo =)
those words so deeply etched ON me,
lyk engravings on a wood.
the difference being...
it aint no artpiece or ornament,
its a freaking ugly scar! that serves as a constant reminder of how u hurt me the bloodless way
how cld u b so heartless n dissin?
a truly fuckin bitch u are
how worthless tis body is tt i've tampled upon it countless.
see how well i respect u??
i hate tis body u've given me...
i hate evth u've given, IF u've truly given me ath..
child abuse is a more appropriate terminology for wat u're putting me thru...
for the love u've showered upon me..
m i supposed to b polite n say..
thank u mama..... for turnin me into a freakin heartless monster devoid of love!
u made me into a frankestein goddamnit...
but beware for wat goes ard comes ard..
u're gonna get ur just deserves...
sry if my words r lyk poison to ur ears.
there's some tings u gotta learn to get used to
n one of them's tt nth ever goes smoothly in life
it mite hurt now but wif tym all these shall fade into naught,
thank you for lovin me,
so here i am, dedicatg tis to u tho i doubt u'll ever read it.
n i shall bcum nth but a past memory while u wld cease to exist in my life.
such has tym been deemed heartless for it robs pple of their memories,
u heart cease to bleed, n ur tears cease to fall.
thank you for evth,
thank you for comin into my life n tching me the meanng of love n heartache
......here lies my tribute to u......
